My Random Thoughts & Dirty Laundry

Mornings are my best time of day. Around here I like to start my morning out reading the Bible and drinking caffeine and my entire day is better when I have a meeting with God before it starts. The kiddos let me sleep in this morning, the weather is warm but stormy, our windows are open. Payton is sitting at the table with his Beanie Baby birdie tipping his cereal bowl up to drink it and I can see the back of his fuzzy bed head, Skyler is dancing in her princess dress with baby rattles on her toes and in her hands, Quinn is playing with her music table and Riley is spending the night with my sister.

I can brew some changes in our family's future and I am really excited to see what God has in store for us. I am ready to accept whatever he leads us to and ready and waiting for instructions. I am constantly praying for Him to fill me up with more of Him and less of myself. I want to see Him, know Him and feel Him...I want His will for my life even if it is not my own. I want to please Him even when it is hard for my flesh. I want to worship and exalt Him during the great times and during the storms. We've been filling our lives with worship and our perspective is now a heavenly perspective rather than a worldly one. I am becoming someone I used to judge. My family has been under attack from Satan because we've been following God's will for our lives. He has attacked my entire family with illness, lies, rumors, hate, persecution, threats, judgement. I know it is a spiritual battle to knock us down. God has also given me messages of peace and comfort almost daily to combat the evil that is trying to crumble our lives. Satan is no match for God. I opened my Bible on Monday and God shared this with me John 15:18-19 If the world hates you, keep in mind that it hated me first. If you belonged to the world, it would love you as its own. As it is, you do not belong to the world, but I have chosen you out of the world. That is why the world hates you. Oh, so that is a perfect explanation of why the world, secular people and Satan hates us, it also makes all the pain and suffering so glorious to know that Jesus suffered first, and God has chosen us out of the world, how amazing, glorious and WORTH it everything is we are going through. If I am hated for the sake of the LORD I am fine being disliked. 1 day later God sent me another message explaining our hardships 1 Peter 3:14 But even if you should suffer for righteousness' sake, you are blessed. "And do not be afraid of their threats, nor be troubled.". I have had several more personal messages from God in the past week all from different places in the Bible all pertaining to personal situations in our lives. I love it God shows up big and shows off his mighty powers. Our earthly issues are nothing for him. He loves bold and audacious prayers from his hurting children so he can have an opportunity to show up, show off things that only He can do.

Okay, I am getting a little long winded and have tons of chores I could be doing but I need to brag for a second how amazing my heavenly Daddy is and how he can pour so much peace and love on a hurting family it washes away all fears and doubt about life. It even makes me excited to follow where he leads us even if my flesh hates change.